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Having a
second baby around the house sure has made me nostalgic.
Watching my little girl grow by the minute, learn new
skills, try new foods and outgrow more clothes than I care
to count has me searching my son’s now-3-year-old face
for the little baby boy he once was. And it’s breaking
my heart that I can’t find him anymore.
My son has grown into a little boy. A daring, charming,
intelligent, beautiful little boy. The only resemblance
left from his infant days are those big, shocking ice blue
eyes – the color of the sky and larger than life, with
eyelashes so long, they are perfect for butterfly kissing.
And when he’s asleep, I catch a glimpse of my baby
boy’s profile again (except with hair now), and I miss
him all over again.
So many mothers and grandmothers told me when my son was
first born to enjoy him while he was a baby, because they
grow so fast. And I did. I soaked in all the time I had
with him so I could remember him as a baby. Yet, these
days I am having difficulty remembering what those days
were like. They seem like a lifetime ago.
I remember the big things. He loved to be nursed to sleep.
He loved swinging. He pooped so many times in the bouncy
chair that it was forever deemed the “Roto-Rooter
Chair.” He had the biggest smiles. He never slept
through the night. He was a very determined little guy who
insisted on sitting up at four months, crawling at five
months, standing at six months, and taking his first steps
at eight months. Barney made him stop in his tracks.
Because of my memory lapse with my son, I am afraid the
same will happen with my daughter. I’m already looking
into her eight-month-old face and searching for the
newborn. I can still see her, but she’s starting to
fade.
This time around, no one needs to tell me how quickly they
grow up. I’ve already seen that trick first hand. So I
am soaking her in just as fiercely as I did with my son,
hoping I can hang onto these days years from now. I want
to remember her full-belly laughs and big, contagious
smiles. Her tiny, tiny feet that, at eight months old,
finally fit into a size 1 shoe. The way she sighs with
satisfaction after being nursed, with her content little
smile and milk running down the side of her face. The way
she grabs her Holly Hobby doll and hugs her tight every
night when she goes to sleep. The way she dances to any
music she hears. They way her eyes go from brown, to blue,
to green, to grey (one thing’s for sure. I can’t wait
to find out what color her eyes will end up being!).
It’s during these times that I have to stand back, and
be sentimental about their baby days, but revel in the
wonders of the toddler and preschool days. I would assume
that these days go by too fast as well. Conversations with
my son are getting much more sophisticated now. He’s
learning so much everyday, I can just see the little
wheels in his head spinning, and processing more and more.
And I am so proud to see him making new friends and
running and laughing with them with all his heart. One
thing’s for sure, he gives everything his 100 percent.
And my almost-toddler daughter, with her 2.5 teeth and
size 1 feet, is rolling all over the living room now. She
talks more and more these days, and tries so hard to play
with her big brother. She is so proud of herself, I can
see it in her face. She’s almost crawling now, but why
push her to grow up? She’ll be there soon enough.
The argument could be made that the toddler days don’t
go by quickly enough. Most of those days are spent in the
Terrible Twos, and who wants to be nostalgic about that?
Ahh, remember that time when he threw a fit in Target and
turned the exact same shade of red as the retail chain’s
logo? And remember all the looks you got from customers as
you repeated your Mommy Mantra, “No new toys for you
today.” Yes, those were the days, my friends.
Those were the days.
About the Author:
Kristine Roberson owns http://www.MyMamaSaid.com
– a website for all moms – and Roberson Publishing (http://www.RobersonPublishing.com),
a web development and desktop publishing firm. Kristine
also runs http://www.MomsPDA.com,
a site for moms who love and count on their handheld
computers. She and her husband are raising their
3-year-old son and infant daughter in Northern California.
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